betul, makcik memang pemalu... tak caya ce tanya kuchen jiran sebelah makcik. bila nampak dia jek kompom makcik lari masuk umah. tapi dia rilekkkk jek ber-catwalk sebelum buat aksi parkour panjat bumbung. kerek betul.
sungguh makcik nih pemalu. sebab tu makcik puas pikir sampai rentung otak samada nak bgtau kat korang ke idak. nak bgtau, tapi mcm malu, maklumlah... baru nak coba2...
taaaaaaaaaaaaapi...
makcik bgtau jugak lah...
ce tengok gambo2 berikut...
ini namanya penanda buku yeaaa, in case u wonder hapekejadahnya lah menatang kat atas nih...
deknon rasa ok takkkk??? ekceli, makcik memula sesuka jek buat menda alah nih. tapi lelama jadi addicted dan jadik baaaaanyaaakk dah. so makcik pun dengah memalu kuchen nya bercadang utk menjual sebahagiannya.
kalau rasa nak beli, sila tengok kat kedai online makcik nehhhh... (wahhh... dah ada kedai gitu...)
ate, kalau tak membeli pun moh la jenguk2 ye deknoooonnnn...
phewwww… finally the cotee sekolah is ovverrrrr… ni la 1st time makcik ‘celebrate’ school holiday kat kampung okkkk… biasanya time cotee sekolah makcik take over tanggungjawab cikgu and makbapak jaga anak orang nuuuunnn kat dalam hutan nunnn... haa laa ni merasa jaga anak sedara sendiri. both my nieces acha and g-na mcm biasa would spent most of their holidays kat umah mak makcik. tu pun naseb baek the first half of the cotee tu makcik balek kl, kalau tak mau koma makcik deknooonnn…
aaaanywaaaaaaayyyss… after more than 6 months papa tinggalkan kami, our lives changed a lot, or at least, for me. i took 2 months unpaid leave to tend to my mak’s deteriorating health, tapi lepas tu jadik 3 months, 4 months, and i’m still on leave sampai la skrg. last words from Big H, ‘come back whenever u wish,’ tapi i think i’ve decided to call it quits. i don’t care whatever might become of me, as long as i’m with my mak. que sera sera, the future’s not ours to see… gitu…
well… panjang pulok teman membebel ye…makcik akhiri ucapan kali ini dengan sekeping dua gambo acha and g-na dengan aktiviti sepanjang cotee sekolah (selaen ngadap Disney channel/cartoon network, maen pc games, khatam baca nancy drew/komik/segalatoknenekstorybooks,drawing/painting).
sangat khusyuk... until...
achu's little samseng showed up utk melawat kawasan... siriyeslih, anak adek makcik nih memang gangster okkkkk...
apapun, ini antara hasel kerja tangan kami...
and this...
and many more tauuu... ada book thong, book dart yg origami tu and fancy paper clip. we even made bracelets, earrings, necklaces and keychains but i guess bookmarks adalah yg ter-best berjaya dihaselkan. actually agak tak menjangka ke-kreatif-an them both, sebab at the beginning they hurt themselves a lot, maklumlah 1st time pegang plier, cutter segala kan.
it's been a month; exactly 30 days since u left us... and finally u came in my dream last nite... i hugged u like never before... and i said, 'papa... akak rendu papa...' u didnt say a thing, but thru the heartbeat, i feel like i can hear u say, 'papa tau... papa tau...' do u, really?
i've said it thousands times when u were still with us, and i'll never stop telling u that...
akak saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayaannnnngggggg papa... papa lah papa akak dunia akhirat...
's anger is like bubbles in a soda can. the more it's shaken, the more she wants to let it out. for the longer she keeps it in though, the greater the size of the eventual explosion... and the flatter the drinks (patience) at the end...
hye deknon... makcik kembali bersiaran di tgh kehujanan kuala lumpur.
well, the last weekend had been pretty hectic for me. managed to squeezed myself ke beberapa openhouses. ANNNNNNDDDD yg terpaleng penting... berjaya menge-host-kan our very own rumah terbuka!!! it was a HUGE success for a first-timer mcm kami2 nih. budget2 paleng ramai pun dalam 15 org gitu, but it turned out ramai la pulak yg sudi mendatangkan diri ke teratak kami yg hena dena ittteeewww... miahahahahah!!!
the best part is, semua menu kami masak sendiri okkkkkk!!! ketupat, rendang dageng, kari ayam, laksa, puding koktel, bubur putih/merah, kuah kacang and pecal, nugget ayam (ok, yg ni jek makcik buat sebenarnya BUT yg laen2 tu semua ada unsur2 aer tangan makcik sbb makcik yg kupas2 bawang, kentang and all the rempah ratus yg tahapa namanya) and ohhhh sungguh rasa mcm dah tak boleh jejak tanah jek bila orang puji2 our foods.
well, dalam 2,3 hari asyik dok kat dapur ni, makcik rasa kan, proffesion sebagai housewife adalah sangat cool la. so i'm thinking nak settle down and menjadi fulltime homemaker. boleh hari2 buat puding jagung, buat cupcakes, masak rendang tok, asam pedas ikan semilang... eeerrrrghhh... setttaaapppnyaa... but life is not that simple kan...
alamak, hujan la pulak kat luar... semoga project ikan keli goreng sambal makcik hari ni berjaya... doakan eh deknooonnn!!!
well, yesterday was a WEDNESDAY. the BIHUNSUP-PIOK-GEDABAK day!!! oleh sebab dah lebey sebulan tak merasa, and damn i missed it last week, harus makcik mcm orang gila naek syeikh time bulan mengambang kannn... kebetulan pulak memang bulan mengambang penuh malam tadi. did u see the moon last night deknoooonnn...??? it was freaking beautiful!!! i wish i could watch it all night till it fades when the first morning light comes out. tapi hujan lah pula. apesal aku rasa mcm lari tajuk nih?
anyways, demi melepaskan ke-gian-an akibat dah lama tak makan sup yg super setttaaappp tu, i bought 2 packets okkkk... DUA BUNGKUS makcik makan at one go!!! pastu bersulam pulak dengan limau barley ipoh mali.
the result? sepanjang malam makcik menonggeng2 saket kepala. sekarang ni pun berjalan maseh senget jek rasa sebab rasa mcm kepala berat sebelah. sangat tak suka laaaaaa...
1) masa tgh tunggu lift smlm (only one worked, dem), ada la sekumpulan pompuan yg berkemungkinan dtg beraya kat kondo makcik nih sbb tgk baju memasing liplap2 bling2 kemaen. muka pun tak pernah nampak. i heard they were talking about the murder case of the infamous cosmetic tycoon when one of the ladies yg makcik rasa boleh dikatakan paleng meletop lah dikalangan mereka, said something like,
"tu la, aku pakai NU-VEL-AS-VI-SAJ ni dah lama... produk dia memang bagusss!!!"
i was like... WTF????!!! makcik ingat salah dengar ke hapeh, but she did say the same thing few times dgn super confident nya okkkkk... dont u think it's funny deknoooonnn???? kata pakai dah lama, tapi NUVELAS VISAJ katanya... i almost choke myself to death sbb tahan gelak. menggigil2 mak dibuatnya nyahhhh...
2) last saturday i went to pasar malam near my condo nih. and guess what happened? 2 kali makcik langgar tiang khemah deknooonnn... ok la yg 1st tu makcik sempat elak, but the 2nd time tu memang makcik langgar bebetul. dah ler booth tu jual ladies accessories, so banyak la gelang2 rantai2 segala benda bergantungan. can u imagine the sound it makes? sungguh la menarek perhatian... ibarat burung2 pun berhenti2 berterbangan, ayam terhenti mematuk cacing, kambeng terpegun dgn rumput penuh di molot...
well, i admit as i walked my mind was somewhere else. there's so much to think about lately. my mind always wandering at any given chance leaving my body like a paper sampan in the river, hanyut tah ke mana2. but in other way, i think it's about time for me to get a new pair of cermin mata. oleh sbb makcik adalah pemakai spec yg 'buas' (where did i hear that word?) i normally changed my spec once a year. tapi yg sdg di pakai ni dah almost 2 years usianya...
taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaapi... mana nak cekau duetnyeeeeee!!! haishhh!!!
3) what would u do kalau kena stay kat rumah sorang2 for few days? not only that, u also have this 'strange ability' (ie imaginasi terlampau) to hearing and seeing things other people dont. well, nak tau apa makcik buat? i pack my lappy, pick my favourite books (RAM's laksamana sunan series) and head off to a place where there's always people taking a break. it's quite costly tapi worth it la buat seorang penakot seperti saya yg hena ini... agak2 kat mana? hik!!!
tu la, kerana mengikut sangat hatey yg merajuk (padahal org laen rilex jek, cheh) i came back earlier to kl but it was definitely a wrong move. i was left alone at home sbb my osmet yg sorang to stayed at her sister's house, and the other one stayed at her fren's sbb she worked morning shift (starts at 7am). siang ok lagi but as the night menjelang, haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... terkucil2 la mak menahan takot.
4) as i told u earlier, i'm not quite myself these days. mamai tahpape. langgar tiang ok lagi, but hilangkan ubat2an yg termasuk dlm kategori controlled medicine adalah masalah besar okkkk... merasa la melangut nak tunggu pengesahan sana sini.
woooooiiii... bagi jek la!!! ingat aku suka2 ke nak makan benda yg dgn jayanya menambah berat badan aku tuuu??? kalau sedap cam kfc tak pe jugak, ini cinonet mcm tu pun nak berkira...
walaupun cuti dua minggu, tapi makcik tak stay lama kat rumah. letih wooo nak melayan soklan2 'bila nak berdua' dan yg sama waktu dgnnya setiap kali jumpa sesapa. lagipun raya tahun ni mcm tak raya pun. my abang dgn achu maseng2 beraya belah in-laws diaorg.
1st syawal makcik terbongkang atas katel sbb masalah kesehatan yg kritikal. 2nd syawal, papa makcik plak tertonggeng sbb gout, tu kompom consume rendang dageng tak hengat time marhaban rumah ke rumah. 3rd syawal baru la semua org ada kat rumah, tapi tu pun abang nak kena cepat2 balek sebab a-cha hari selasa dah sekolah. maklumlah sekolah cina, hape ke giler nak cuti raya lama2.
anywaaayyysss... sebelum gerak balek kl petang semalam, acha bagi makcik surat. dia pesan, 'mak ngah dah masuk dalam kereta baru baca tauuu...'
tapi tah macamana, makcik terlupa. tengah kemas2 beg sat ni tadi baru teringat. nak tau kandungan surat misteri dari minah cinonet tuh...???
tadaaaaa...!!!
hampeh sangat kaaaaannn...
kalau deknon nak tau, acha tules surat tu dlm 5 ke seploh menet jek kot sbb makcik perasan dia carik pen masa makcik pakai telekong nak solat asar, pastu masa makcik lipat telekong lps solat, dia tgh lipat surat tu... no wonder la cikgu bm dia kata dia dah boleh buat soalan exam budak darjah 5 walaupun baru darjah 1!!!
i'm soooo proud of her walaupun kadang2 rasa nak cubit2 pun ada jugak sbb molot dia tu, adeeeeeeeeee jek nak menjawab...
semua org tgh kalut2 for the last minute prep untuk raya. tak pun dah sebok2 packing barang nak kembali ke pangkal jalan... even my osmet pun dah berangkat pagi tadi. tinggal makcik solo2 basuh baju kat umah ni dgn yg sorang lagi sbb dia maseh keje. kalau hati tergerak nak balek (dah kata tgh merajuk kannn) prolly makcik akan balek dgn dia sbb dia orang selatan gak...
makcik sbnrnya langsung tade rasa nak raya pun. usahkan baju raya, sampul angpow raya pun tak beli. dgn tahap kesihatan yg terburuk dlm sejarah kehidupan, dgn hubungan yg tegang dgn org2 tersayang, dgn waq gus yg sampai 4 kali eksiden within 3 weeks of ramadhan, dgn kemenyampahan terhadap org atas tahap petala kelapan... how do u expect me to be happy deknonnnn...??? i manage to keep bright face but deep down, my heart is like a broken glass. everytime i tried to fix it, i only hurt myself even more.
apapun, utk semua yg sedang bergembira pulang ke kampung, ni je lah pesan makcik...
p/s: che da kata makcik rajen tempek gambar tunjuk roper lately. well, i think, ekawan is a lot safer now sbb rasanya skrg tak ramai pengunjung espeshli yg ada blog mcm dulu. kalau tak, banyak jek msg2 mengarut masuk kat inbox, la ni nan hado pun. meaning, nobody really notice my existence kat sini. kalau deknon sekalian jumpa makcik kat mana2 pun insyaAllah tak kenal kot sbb all the pictures yg makcik share kat sini were taken before ramadhan this year... hehe
yesss, i am freaking furious. at everything. everyone. semuanya lah. hatta 'kucing kesihatan' (only my osmet jek mengerti kenapa kucing tu diberi such name) yg melintas depan makcik pun makcik jeling macam lah dia nak ngorat makcik.
serius, makcik sangat SANGAT marah sebenarnya. makcik tau dah dekat2 nak raya ni apa kes la plak nak marah2 kannnn...
tapi kalau dah banyak sangat benda yang menaekkan temperature, harus aku tak rasa nak meletop deknooonnn??? ok, makcik belum nak meletop lagi, baru 'rasa macam nak' je...
dah makcik tengah marah ni boleh pulak ada yang tanya kenapa muka macam orang berak sembelit pulak... saja carik nahas lah kan...
ok lah, nak mandi ais... kot boleh turun sikit suhu badan nih...
weeks before puasa, i had a HUGE fight with achu over the phone. it was just some little misunderstanding over trivial matters, really, tapi tah macamana it became soooooo out of control. we never talked to each other eversince. he did try to call me once about a week later (nak pujuk la agaknya kot) but i'm already well known for kepala-lagi-keras-dari-tembok-konkrit. after that no call, no sms, no nothing at all. i was soooo mad siap plan2 tanak balek raya tahun ni...
i know i'm being totally irrational sbb rasa macam achu lebey mementingkan his wife and anak kesayangannya. tapi nak buat macamana, dari kecik lagi makcik dah terbiasa share secrets, stories and everything dengan dia (i never really share anything with anybody, not friends, not my mother... no... it's only achu throughout my life) so dapatkah deknon2 sekalian membayangkan betapa tersisihnya rasa hatey ini tatkala achu tak dapat luangkan masa nak dengar segala bala cerita, masalah serta gossip tidak penting makcik????
seriyeeessss... i terluka taaaaaaaaaaauuuuu!!!
akan tetapi, setelah puas beremosi2 sendiri, makcik sedar, at the end of the day, i'm completely on my own. bila matey nanti masuk kubur sorang2 jugak qaedahnya kannn...
the hardest part came on the very first day of ramadhan. waq gus ke-eksiden-an. i managed to settle everything dengan pakcik-rempit-yang-kasihan on my own sewaktu kejadian but the moment i got back in the car, i frantically searched for my phone. u see, i always need to unleash my feeling or else i'll get emotionally sick and many times would end up muntah2. i wanted to call achu so bad, tapi disebabkan kepala makcik adalah lebey keras dari konkrit, i did not. they were another TWO numbers left that i could possibly call: 1) a friend whom since the 1st day i met him 4 years ago, kejenya adalah 'menyelamatkan' makcik saja, and i'm already tired being 'a damsel in distress' in his eyes so i passed his number, 2) a guy whom i used to looked up and lean against him for quite sometimes during my troubled days but eventually he just proved himself not strong enuf to lean on for long and so i passed his number too.
at the end, menangeslah (actually ianya lebey kepada raungan kecil) makcik sorang2 dalam kereta persis lunatic terlepas kandang sambel berbuka 3 ketol samosa ayam memandangkan jalan adalah jem macam celaka pada hari tersebut it took me 2 hour and half to reach home. luckily, makcik tak muntah menahan perasaan kalau tak berlalu begitu sajalah puasa pertama hamba.
that nite, as i laid myself down to sleep, i told myself to be stronger for nobody will ever stand by my side forever. things are always hard for me, but somehow i always survived the hellish trial come what may.
and yesss, few other bad things happened but i believe i'm much in better control of myself. i managed to hold back my feelings no matter how fucked-up things were and no matter how bad i need to let it out. yea, YEAYYY for that.
until this morning, i received a message from achu. it goes;
'aku nk pujuk ni, ko kwn le blk dgn aku..aku betul2 sunyi dol tanpa ko.. ko trima x?'
terus makcik meleleh2 sendirian deknooonnn... i just dont know how to describe my feelings. it's all mix-up. God knows how i miss my little boy (he's always that little innocent boy in school prefect uniform in my eyes regardless how manly he turned out to be) mcm nak giler akan tetapi sehingga entri ni ditules, i havent reply anything. he knows i need time to recuperate whenever i get wounded and now i understand that time is what he gives. and i realize that nobody ever undertands me as my boy does.
i'm thinking of not to answer him in any way sampai balek raya nanti, tapi makcik ingat nak belikan dia baju raya, kasut raya and else. what say u deknonnnn???
oh by the way, one of the ladies in picture below adalah 6-month preggie... teka yang mana hikkk!!
petang tadi, acha my niece was helping me packing my things when she suddenly asked in chinese, 'mak ngah, uncle berry nali?' (or something like that which means 'where is uncle berry?' - just so u know, she goes to chinese school so we encourage her to speak chinese whenever wherever possible, walaupun kadang2 kami tak paham pun).
'tak ada.' i replied after a long pause. really, i dunno what to tell her. lagipun tak sangka plak dia ingat lagi. i think when all that happened (the connection they made) umur acha baru 5 thn kot.
i wish u could look at her face. seriyes abes wa cakap lu. i was like, OH-MY-GOOOOSSSHHH, jauhnya imaginasi budak nih!!! we then talked about life and death and everything in between sbb minah cenonet nih byk sgt soal. and only then i realized kenapa cikgu dia kata she has a brain of 10-year-old walaupun baru darjah 1. and if that uncle berry really meninggal pun (read: i said 'if') apa motif la pulak aku nak bgtau acha kannn...?
lepas tu i thought dia dah tak cakap lagi dah because i told her tak baek cakap2 pasal org dah tak ada (ha ha ha). but later at night, as she bid me goodnite, she said,
'mak ngah jangan lupa baca fatehah utk uncle berry. kakak pun baca, lepas tu nak doa nanti malaikat dengar sampaikan pada dia.'
oh so shhweeeettt...
so, uncle berry(i guess u know who u are, or if u've been hit by a huge 40-wheels-truck and suffered a severe memory loss, perhaps u dont) wherever u are whatever u do, salam al fatehah from a little girl named acha. she prays for u to safely landed in heaven.
1) DURIAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNN!!! no, not the ones yang dah siap packing2 3 peket seploh hengget tu... but i want yang fresh dikopek dari kuletnya... BUT, i dont know how to kopek durian myself, and i bet seantero isi rumah makcik tatau jugak... sadis sekali... (the fact that i cant eat durian doesnt count sbb i only get sick sekiranya my mak finds out... strange...)
2) MY ORANGE JERSEYYYYYYY!!! herloooowww mister posmen sir, sampai bila awak nak peram barang saya itu? malam ni dah nak game la samdol oooooooooooooiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3) TABLE LAMP yang romantik2 sket... haha!!! buku adalah banyak tapi lampu plak buat hal... cemana nye makcik nak membaca sampai tertido2 deknoooonnnnnnnnnn???????????? sedey tau...
1) PUAN AINON MOHD. (CEO PTS) KOMEN STATUS MAKCIK KAT PESBUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ko hado deknooonnnn???? (ehem, berlagak sket)
2) sedang pokai yg sesungguh sungguh pokai sehingga tak mampu beli ayam goreng, tapi entah mcamana SECARA TIBA2 (ini siriusss) mcm ada duet dan telah tershopping buku di selangor book fair persis orang kaya tak sedar diri... ajaib kaaannnnn??? apapun, makcik soka soka soka soka taaaauuuu...
hmmm... tak pe lah... makcik tau, makcik nih si toa yg hena... tak layak utk dikenang ke-vogue-an nya di atas muka bumi ini...
eh, motif tetibe hemo???!!!
gini ler ropernya bila dah lama tak meroyan... al-maklumlah, geng2 meroyan ramai yg dah hensofff (hensofff kat molot jek, hatey tettaaappp mcm celaka, mcm aku tatau) kaaaaaaaaaannnn...
sebenarnya makcik mcm dah terlupa makcik ada blog kat sini. paham jek la, org toa... tapi tehengat balek pasal mlm tadi si puteri anak pak mursidi ada sebut pasal ekawan kat fb. ye deknooooonnn, makcik dah berkampung kat fb ejen yahudi melalaikan maknoshea tu haaaa... walaupun makcik bukan mafia, tak ada cafe mahupun ladang berekar2 (motif setiap kali mention fb nak bgtau bende nih???) tapi tetttaaappp login hari2 sbb nak pantau makhluq2 bertanduk ghaib yg soker bebeno melongkangkan makcik dgn menghaplod gambar2 celaka...
cheh, ingat masa mula naip tadi mcm tade idea, tapi hamek kaaauuu berjela dah aku membebel.
ok la... makcik akhiri ucapan makcik hari ni dengan beberapa rangkap gambar...
ni ler aktiviti makcik setiap mlm sekarang... berkampung depan bangunan sultan abdul samad menghayati sejarah tanah aer terchenta... percayalah...
hamekkk ko beso punyaaaaa... siap bley nampak taik idong messi terkeluar... ko hado deknoooonnn???
minggu lepas, makcik berangan nak jadik suri rumah tangga berjaya, lalu makcik telah TERmembeli 2 ekor ikan keli bersih kat mydin. promoter yg promote ikan keli tu adalah seorang ciki yg super jelita. makcik tergoda, lalu makcik beli lah. dia kata ikan keli tu bersih sbb makan palet jek, pastu dah siap siang... kalau ikutkan makcik nak beli yg idop2 (haha tipu) sbb nak mempertajam skill menyiang ikan selepas kejayaan gemilang menyiang ikan jaket (ok, walaupun sblh jek, sblh lagi my osmet yg buat tapi tetap dikira makcik yg siang sbb makcik yg beli)...
keli > ciki > jaket > siang... queen of digress.
ok... berbalek kpd cerita keli. setelah 7 hari (sabtu lepas sampai hari ni) menangguh2 proses memasak sebab AKU MANA RETI MASAK IKAN KELI DEMMIT akhernya makcik bertekad jugak untuk menyelamatkan ikan2 keli yg comel itu dari menjadi mangsa tong sampah. tambahan pula makcik mendapat sokongan padu dari MG dan kak nur di fb... ye, saya telah me-login ke fb setiap hari sekarang walaupun saya bukan mafia, tak ada cafe mahupun ladang dgn kambeng sedey mcm orang laen. untuk ape aku cerita benda ni pun aku tatau... ha ha ha hanggok tol aku ni digress lagi...
aaaaanyyyywaaaaaaaayyyss... balek jek dari keje tadi, makcik pun mula lah bertungkus lumus di dapur...
bersiap sedia ke medan juang...
skill yg MG ajar... campak dalam kuali (and siriyes gua betul2 campak!!!) pastu tutup pakai sokabor...
ini dia... hasel setelah berhempas pulas di dapur...
yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... taaaaaaaaaaaaaauuuuu... keli gua ireeengggg... rasa pun mcm arang... akan tatapi, hatey gua maaaaaanyaaaaaaaaaaaakkkk senang lohhhhh....!!!!
p/s : makcik kompom giler dah letak garam, tapi apesal rasa mcm pahit???